Day 41


 Today felt overwhelming, so many people struggling with illness.  Fear wanted to overwhelm, still does.  I need to stay healthy, but the worry shows that I am not trusting like I should.   It brings out all the bargaining, thinking that means something or influences.  

That is not how HE works. 

Honestly, I am thankful that it isn't how HE works. Though all this shows my struggle with trust.  

I am thankful HE gets that too.

I find myself whispering, I believe but heal my unbelief.  

ABBA, You alone know my motive, my fear, my concern.  Trust is what You desire from me.  ABBA, You can help me with that struggle as well.    

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